Dry Up Tears

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Todayy when i go to church , i hear this verse " Died but revived . Lost but found again . Rejoice for he had changed ."
So wat am i? dying ? or being revived?
Lost ? or being found?
should i change?

Trust , Love , Friendship is something so fragile .
one accident can cause it to be lost forever .
Truth can make something be good or bad .
Truth can let trust be lost
Truth can let a friendship be lost forever .

Am i not trust worthy enough?
Why do people hav to lie to me?
why do people hav to give me bullshit one after another?

The final decision is i will longer trust anyone ever agn .
NO LOnger will love .
Shall change , to become a better or a bad person i still dunno .
But all odds are telling me that being a good person for so long all i get was pain .

Lost Trust
9:00 AM <3

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Zhen zhen jia jia , jia jia zhen zhen , fan xi dou shi xu kong .
Now i can no longer see wat is reality .
Am i able to entrust u with my sorrows or are u the one making me sad?
Love or brothership is more important?
own happiness and other people happiness which is more important?
Be a good person? or Be a bad person?
Kind or evil?

I have decided on wat i shall do .
All this pain and suffering i shall help everyone that is inside to keep .
Why not let others happy .
One person suffer is enough .
Foolish? May be ba but guess my life is make up of all the foolish bullshit.
Pure friends or Lovers?
I always have no right to decide .
Wat mine shall be mine wat will nvr be mine shall nvr come to me .
Love is something that will nvr come to me however hard i tried .
4 yrs? 6 months? 3 month? or a few weeks ?
Wasted 5 years jus to get more and more saddness .
So decided to locked all this things up .
All this shall become a bad memory , a bad lesson for myself .
Telling myself nvr ever trust someone so much agn .

Lost Trust
8:47 AM <3
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I once hear this thing before " Ai zhen de bu shi yi ge dong xi "

Now i finally quite understand .

If u love someone and the person dont love u , u get hurt .

If that someone love u , u dont love that someone , that person get hurt .

If both of u love each other it is always someone else will get hurt .

No matter how someone will get hurt .

Todayy in Face book i see a very intersting quiz .

"If ur best friend happen to love the same person that u love .Will u give up?"

I repeated ask myself this very question . My life i have given up love for my frens for countless times , i do not noe if it is loyalty or stupidity .

But i asked myself this question , why in my veryy life , why hasnt anyone of my frens given up love for me?

Guess my answer is still i will give it up ba .May be is silly but i still would .

wo bu ru di yu , xie ru di yu .

I no longer can taste love anymore .

whelther if i am not worthy or not meant to be , i seriously dunno

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Lost Trust
8:21 AM <3
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Friday, March 5, 2010

Yoz! i m at chalet right now, enjoying myself, hahas! Common test is finally over, can relax liaos... :) Was rather tiring today as there were sport heats... Stayed back till quite late... GTG le, so byes everyone!

Lost Trust
9:05 AM <3
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Saturday, February 27, 2010

This was taken last Sat i think i forget le . I got serious STML .
Anyway it was 8-9 plus liaos hahas we were playing basket ball at the hardcourt at ______ . Night time damn fun de at there a lot of ppl like street basketball like that :D

Lost Trust
8:47 AM <3
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The left one is YONG xiang .MIddle one is my rabbit and Right is me LOL
This was taken during Ms Allina Khaw party which was veryy veryy long ago :x
I too lag :p

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8:31 AM <3
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I realise i very long nvr post or use com le . See i so guai
And and my blogskin dunno why keep got problems de lehx so thats why MIA so long . PS uh .
hmmph so many things happen when i am gone well slowly slowly say ba .
uhmm well i kinda feel like i am very lost this days . So much to do , so much things happening . Problems seem to come out everywhr regards of love , family or friends . I feel tired .
Now i face not only my problems but my frenz ones as well . Person A had family issues , family tight of money .Recently his specs broke , bike spoiled , need to hav check up for his illness . Person B his mom suffered from injury last time now unable to work .Father jus cured from a serious illness and was fired , now cant find a job . His family in need of cash and yet Person B still anyhow spending money .
I dunno wat to do . I am now trying wat i can to pay for their bills but yet wat i offer is still not enough i really dunno wat to do :x
So if u owe me money mus return horx i need to cash too :x

Lost Trust
8:06 AM <3
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